I was in the process of writing another post but somehow found myself on Myspace, please don't question why, and I found one of my old pieces. I wrote this back in 2008 but 99% of that list still stands true. Well, LoL, here it is.
the truth is...
i'm crazy
i'm sensitive
i'm shy
i write poetry
i love love songs
i wanna get married
i want at least 2 kids
my fav color is green
i'm a jealous person
i almost had you
i like painting my nails bright colors
i love singing
i hate singing in public
i'm not scared of lions and tigers and bears
but i'm scared of loving you
sometimes i miss my dad (but not very often)
sometimes i cry and i don't know why
i like red apples
i love the red and yellow ones better
lucky charms is my fav cereal
i love to watch the sun set
i like taking long walks
i wanna be in love
i like being alone
i hate rodents
i can't stop
sometimes i wish he would come back to me
i'm always indecisive
i procrastinate a lot
sometimes i wish i had magical powers
i'm uncomfortable about telling people my weight
i should have never cut my hair
i want to be happy
i love chocolate ice cream
i love nickeisha's baked macaroni and fried chicken
i'm lactose intollerant
sometimes i just don't care
i'm sorry
i wanna be rich when i grow up
i don't like public speaking
sometimes i wish i could rewind time
i listen to my music loud so that i can block out the world
i like the way my eyes and hair look in the sun
sometimes i just wanna punch people in the face
stupid people annoy me
common sense isn't very common
when i was younger i wish i had a twin sister
i like pink cotton candy and fried chicken
i love going to the pool
i almost drowned when i was younger
i wish i had a car
i still don't have my driver's license
i want to be a teacher
i'm scared of the thunder and lightening
if i had one wish i would wish for a million more
i'm bitter
i take it back...i dont miss my father
i'm not sure how to forgive
i like pepperoni pizza with ham, bacon, and extra cheese
i love oreos
i'm scared of what the future holds
i can't let go
sometimes i rather being single
i'd do almost anything for him
i wish he would wake up
i need help but i won't ever ask for it
i don't smile a lot so people think i'm a bitch
i don't smile a lot because my smile is crooked
i cover my mouth when i laugh because i have a gap
i don't watch a lot of tv anymore
i gained 10 pounds my freshman year
i was aiming for higher
i have a crush on you
i like to cook
i hate cleaning up
i ignore my problems instead of facing them
i'm a little too laid back for my own good
i always give more
i love you more than you'll ever know
i want to end this list but i don't know where or how to stop
i keep coming up with new things
even if i stopped now i would eventually come back and add another line
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the truth is....
Saturday, December 31, 2011
New Year's Schmesolutions!
So every year, approximately right after Christmas, you see all the Facebook statuses, tweets and Myspace updates,when it was poppin', saying, "New Year, New Me!" Yeah, freaking right!! Chances are, that by the second week of January, the "new you" will have forgotten all of your resolutions and the "new you" will have flopped.
Just like in elementary school when the teachers forced you to write a New Year's Resolution you now think up a bunch of new traits and lies that you magically want to transform yourself into the during the upcoming year. To be more honest, go to the gym more and eat healthier, stop procrastinating, stop cursing so much, go to church more, stop drinking (LIES.COM), tweet less and focus more. But who are you really fooling?
Hoping that you'll wake up on January 1st with "a new refreshed attitude" is stupid. For one, you can wake up any day with "a new refreshed attitude", if you really put your mind to it. New Year, New Beginnings. Yes this is true, in a sense, but everyday is a new beginning and a chance to straight over fresh and to fix any mistakes that you've made the night before. But at the same time WHY wait for the new year to make these changes? Why not start NOW as you're sitting down and writing your "resolutions". Make your today be better than your yesterday and start fresh from now. I think that it's a bit unrealistic and kind of stressful to put that on yourself trying to think you can make a 180° turn when you need plenty of time. Especially if you're just gonna end up not even fulfilling them.
I know I probably sound harsh and make it seem like there is no hope for the human race but I am just being rational but if you are going to actually make a New Year's Resolution please be smart about it and make it something that you can actually do. Make it something that is realistic and don't just use the new year to just come up with how the NEW you should be. Be honest with yourself and don't make any false hopes..
Follow your dreams, work hard, practice and persevere. Make sure you eat a variety of foods, get plenty of exercise and maintain a healthy lifestyle.
Sasha Cohen
Just like in elementary school when the teachers forced you to write a New Year's Resolution you now think up a bunch of new traits and lies that you magically want to transform yourself into the during the upcoming year. To be more honest, go to the gym more and eat healthier, stop procrastinating, stop cursing so much, go to church more, stop drinking (LIES.COM), tweet less and focus more. But who are you really fooling?
Hoping that you'll wake up on January 1st with "a new refreshed attitude" is stupid. For one, you can wake up any day with "a new refreshed attitude", if you really put your mind to it. New Year, New Beginnings. Yes this is true, in a sense, but everyday is a new beginning and a chance to straight over fresh and to fix any mistakes that you've made the night before. But at the same time WHY wait for the new year to make these changes? Why not start NOW as you're sitting down and writing your "resolutions". Make your today be better than your yesterday and start fresh from now. I think that it's a bit unrealistic and kind of stressful to put that on yourself trying to think you can make a 180° turn when you need plenty of time. Especially if you're just gonna end up not even fulfilling them.
I know I probably sound harsh and make it seem like there is no hope for the human race but I am just being rational but if you are going to actually make a New Year's Resolution please be smart about it and make it something that you can actually do. Make it something that is realistic and don't just use the new year to just come up with how the NEW you should be. Be honest with yourself and don't make any false hopes..
Follow your dreams, work hard, practice and persevere. Make sure you eat a variety of foods, get plenty of exercise and maintain a healthy lifestyle.
Sasha Cohen
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Why Buy The Cow?
I got the inspiration for this post from watching yet another episode of VH1's "Love and Hip Hop" with Chrissy and Jim Jones. She's frustrated that he won't make that next step and he can't understand what's the big deal. I can totally sympathize with her because I have been in an "on and off relationship" for the past 7 years wondering why we progressed so little. Why is he taking so long to grow up and be a man when I've given so much? Why can't he take that next step and go further. "So.. I break for you, but you can't even bend for me?" - @KekePalmer But on the other hand, I can cosign with Jimmy. Why buy the cow if I'm already getting the milk for free? Why marry you if you're already doing wifely duties? You live with me, cook and clean too. Everything a wife already does without the ring and possible headache a man gains when he makes you his wife.
To flip it back to Chrissy, she's been with him for 7 years and has invested time and money not only in him but on his deals and things he endorses in. On this last episode she basically designed his entire clothing clothing line. So if they were to break up she would get nothing, not even a percentage of the profits from this line or any of the other things she helped him build. But at the same time giving a man an ultimatum never really solves anything either. It is a compromise where no one is truly happy with the end result. Telling him, "Marry me or ELSE!" will give you three outcomes with ALL of them leaving you stressed and/or heartbroken in the end. 1. He decides to marry you or what happens most of the times, he proposes (to shut you up) but never sets a date and then before you know it you're engaged for another 7 years. 2. Or if he's a sucker who buckles under pressure, he will propose, set the date and marry you but in the back of his mind he will always think that this is the biggest mistake that he's ever made in his life. He's never really faithful and continues to do him regardless of the title, ring and marriage certificate. 3. He goes with the "or ELSE!" and leaves you. You then cry for weeks and threaten to burn his house down.
There is this poet, (who you should all check out) Dana Gilmore, who has a poem called "Wife, Woman, Friend." ( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_aSPYcjspgk ) She talks about how women never want to stay in their place and play the role that they auditioned for. The friend always wants to be the girlfriend. The girlfriend is always gunning for the role of the wife. And the wife... well she wants to act like his mother. Sometimes you just have to play your role correctly and maybe he'll realize that the cow is worth much more than he thinks it is.
Now, I don't want to tell you to be complacent with a man who doesn't see you for your true potential but don't put yourself in these situations where you're doing more than what you've signed up for. Play your role and try not to step out of it. A wife should be his friend but don't try to be his live-in girlfriend if you are just his friend. And don't try to star as the wife if you're just his girlfriend. You'll end up giving up too much milk, for free at that, and he'll NEVER need to give you a valid enough reason to ever purchase the cow when he's getting it all for $free.99.
Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle, love is a war; love is a growing up.
James A. Baldwin
To flip it back to Chrissy, she's been with him for 7 years and has invested time and money not only in him but on his deals and things he endorses in. On this last episode she basically designed his entire clothing clothing line. So if they were to break up she would get nothing, not even a percentage of the profits from this line or any of the other things she helped him build. But at the same time giving a man an ultimatum never really solves anything either. It is a compromise where no one is truly happy with the end result. Telling him, "Marry me or ELSE!" will give you three outcomes with ALL of them leaving you stressed and/or heartbroken in the end. 1. He decides to marry you or what happens most of the times, he proposes (to shut you up) but never sets a date and then before you know it you're engaged for another 7 years. 2. Or if he's a sucker who buckles under pressure, he will propose, set the date and marry you but in the back of his mind he will always think that this is the biggest mistake that he's ever made in his life. He's never really faithful and continues to do him regardless of the title, ring and marriage certificate. 3. He goes with the "or ELSE!" and leaves you. You then cry for weeks and threaten to burn his house down.
There is this poet, (who you should all check out) Dana Gilmore, who has a poem called "Wife, Woman, Friend." ( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_aSPYcjspgk ) She talks about how women never want to stay in their place and play the role that they auditioned for. The friend always wants to be the girlfriend. The girlfriend is always gunning for the role of the wife. And the wife... well she wants to act like his mother. Sometimes you just have to play your role correctly and maybe he'll realize that the cow is worth much more than he thinks it is.
Now, I don't want to tell you to be complacent with a man who doesn't see you for your true potential but don't put yourself in these situations where you're doing more than what you've signed up for. Play your role and try not to step out of it. A wife should be his friend but don't try to be his live-in girlfriend if you are just his friend. And don't try to star as the wife if you're just his girlfriend. You'll end up giving up too much milk, for free at that, and he'll NEVER need to give you a valid enough reason to ever purchase the cow when he's getting it all for $free.99.
Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle, love is a war; love is a growing up.
James A. Baldwin
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Alphabet Soup pt 2
Although on the outside i appear to be in control i'm just a
Battered & beat up, lost
Child trying so hard & so
Desperately to get home before the street lights turn on. but
Every tree & every corner looks like the one i just passed. i'm
Frantic & scared wondering why i haven't
Gotten to my destination yet.
Hungry & alone in this cold, cold world.
It seems as though there's no one to turn to. to talk to for fear of being
Judged unfairly. to be labeled with words that aren't
Kind at all. but pray for the
Little girl who
Must wonder around the world without
No one to depend on and no
One to love her. no one to hold her and
Protect her from the storm. she's longing for someone to help
Quench this longing feeling of
Remorse for something
She's not even sure that she did. but she feels
The guilt and feels trapped in an never-ending cycle of being miss-
Understood by people who will never
Volunteer their time to love and
Win her heart. cause right now some drug starting with an
X sounds more than perfect right now. see cause that way she won't have to
Yearn for anyone to tell her how much they "love" her. to lie and make her
Zig zag throughout this impossible maze called life.
I like not only to be loved, but also to be told I am loved.
George Eliot
Battered & beat up, lost
Child trying so hard & so
Desperately to get home before the street lights turn on. but
Every tree & every corner looks like the one i just passed. i'm
Frantic & scared wondering why i haven't
Gotten to my destination yet.
Hungry & alone in this cold, cold world.
It seems as though there's no one to turn to. to talk to for fear of being
Judged unfairly. to be labeled with words that aren't
Kind at all. but pray for the
Little girl who
Must wonder around the world without
No one to depend on and no
One to love her. no one to hold her and
Protect her from the storm. she's longing for someone to help
Quench this longing feeling of
Remorse for something
She's not even sure that she did. but she feels
The guilt and feels trapped in an never-ending cycle of being miss-
Understood by people who will never
Volunteer their time to love and
Win her heart. cause right now some drug starting with an
X sounds more than perfect right now. see cause that way she won't have to
Yearn for anyone to tell her how much they "love" her. to lie and make her
Zig zag throughout this impossible maze called life.
I like not only to be loved, but also to be told I am loved.
George Eliot
Saturday, December 17, 2011
Up.
So it's approximately 7:02 as I am typing this. I'm not exactly sure what I'm going to write about but I do know that I want to write something and just get it out. I won't use this post as my personal diary but I need to write, something anything. I still haven't thought of a topic yet even though I've been writing for about 2 minutes now. I remember in HS a teacher gave us an assignment and told us to just write for about 10 minutes about whatever you want to write even if you don't have a topic. Just write about whatever you are thinking about inside. She called it stream of consciousness writing or something like that, so I'm going to try it out again. She said don't erase and don't try to correct your mistakes either just keep going. I want to write about a lot of things but I'm sure how appropriate they might be or if I even want to share them with the world. But this helps somewhat. Right now my mother is up in the kitchen banging cupboards together driving me crazy and talking to herself. Ehhh I don't know. I've been in and out of sleep for the past 9hrs. Idk what's wrong with me I can't seem to sleep straight through the night to save my life no matter how hard I try. I guess I'm going through a lot of stress right now and I don't even realize it. I tend to push things to the back of my mind until it becomes full to capacity and I explode. hmmph. Maybe I'll try going to sleep again. But my back hurts so bad that it probably takes the most time trying to find a comfortable enough spot to fall asleep in. But I'll try anyway. Right after I write this last sentence. I've been writing for 10minutes now. I'm done
I'm concentrating on staying healthy, having peace, being happy, remembering what is important, taking in nature and animals, spending time reading, trying to understand the universe, where science and the spiritual meet.
Joan Jett
I'm concentrating on staying healthy, having peace, being happy, remembering what is important, taking in nature and animals, spending time reading, trying to understand the universe, where science and the spiritual meet.
Joan Jett
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