Regretful Moments

& i regret every moment spent with you
& every lie from your lips that i believed
i wish i was smarter back then
i wish i knew then what i know now
that way i wouldn't regret you so much

Linger

& i still smell your scent
even though i haven't seen you in months
it envelopes me & won't leave
covers my body & won't let go
the thought of you wants to stay here
wants to hold on
so you linger around even long after you've gone…

Finding Natasha

i'm not quite sure where i lost ME
but i do know that i ran out & left ME a long, long time ago.
i got caught up with the wrong people, wrong person & forgot all about ME
i'd call & call every day but ME wouldn't pick up the phone
so many ignored texts, missed calls…
but ME just couldn't see them, wouldn't see them
too busy being blinded by "love"
but that "love" was not patient nor was it kind
it hurt, but i stayed because i was too used to it
it had become a vicious cycle that i didn't want to end
but ME just wouldn't let go
ME just didn't want to move on, too afraid of starting over
so, ME waited & gave "love" some time to gather it's thoughts
only to have "love" give up on ME & give itself away to someone else
ME was left out in the cold
all that time & effort spent loving someone who could care less
but ME would find her silver lining someday, i just knew it
i vowed to never let another hurt ME the way that he did
& so i went searching for ME once again
for i had slowly started to remember where i'd lost myself
way back when, those many years ago…

"Sometimes the heart sees what is invisible to the eye".
-H. Jackson Brown, Jr.