When Things Fall Apart

when things fall apart
& you can't remember how it even got that far
when relationships start to unravel
slowly becoming loose threads of what was
& what isn't anymore
when things fall apart
& you can't remember why
cause money ain't enough
where did it all go
when nothing goes right
& everyone points their fingers at you
when things fall apart
& you don't know how
just like a fugitive running from the law
with a huge bounty on your head
you're stuck, trapped in pause mode
slowly slipping, just like sinking sand
when things fall apart
& there's nothing left to live for
cause you feel like no one cares to understand
held hostage by pain & discomfort
with the key just at arm's reach but yet so far away
when things fall apart…

Turning & turning in the widening gyre
The falcon cannot hear the falconer;
Things fall apart; the center cannot hold;
Mere anarchy is loosed upon the world. -W. B. Yeats

What's Ya Carfax Girlll?

I don't understand guys who are always quick to look up a girl's carfax¹ before getting in a relationship with her. Even if she DID let everyone in the Tri-State Are and Miami touch it why are you so eager to pull up her file? I'm pretty sure that yours is atrocious compared to hers..

This is why (most) girls are so reluctant to let their numbers get too high. They will most likely give you an incorrect "estimate" that's way below their actual number. (I won't even get into the REAL reasons why she decreases her numbers because that is a post for another time) And for the most part the guy who is so anxiously trying to dig up her carfax is completely irrelevant. Chances are he is the guy that she denied access to her cookies and now he is angry and bitter or he's the ALWAYS single and annoying friend aka 3rd Wheel who is upset that he's losing his friend to a girl! ( o_O whaaaat?) So here goes Mr. Bitter tryna to mess up a potentially good thing just because he can.

This is not only annoying but it is stupid! Men are always accusing women for being confused, incapable of making up her mind and knowing what she wants. But the moment she figure out what she wants and it just so happens to involve having sex with the man or in this case men that she chooses she is labled a slut. We live in a world full of double standards where the men are supposed to be strong and women, weak. Where men should be active and women should be passive. We live in a world where a man is praised for getting all the girls, "Ladies Man", but a woman is called a "Maneater" if they become involved with too many men. These rules are not fair at all.

Why is it okay for a man to know what he wants and to go out and get it but it's NOT okay for a woman to? More than 99% of the times a man's carfax is 10x worse than his counterpart's number but it is okay? You want a girl who will buss it wide open and do all kinds of tricks without you having to tell her what to do BUT she can't have too many partners or that'll be just wrong! Make up your minds!

I say sometimes you just have to leave it alone. I like you and you like me. Let's just start new with just us in the picture and forget the numbers. Personally, I wouldn't ask about any numbers because I'd be afraid of the answer.



¹ "Carfax" is a term/website used to research the history report of a used car before purchasing it. Today, most people use this term to research the sexual history report of a potential partner.